The year is almost out! Where has the time gone? Normally when November comes around my family and I start thinking about the holidays. We start thinking about how we are going to decorate the house the tree, and all the trimmings. We think about color themes and we start room by room, getting this in order. By the time Thanksgiving Day weekend arrives, it is on and poppin.  It is a big weekend. We start decorating the house, we put the tree up, and try to get something under the tree. This year has been hard on the family, with loss of loved ones, financial and health challenges.  It is easy to begin not to want to celebrate the holiday with all that life has thrown at us this year. I reached a point that I couldn’t settle any more, in order for me to live, I had to move on, and let some things go.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              I I love Christmas, and spending time with family. Your girl Curvanna, loves to watch Hallmark movies, they romanticize the holidays.  It is a great distraction from everyday life.  As I began to watch some of the movies, I noticed that it didn’t do for me what it had in the past.  The feelings and thoughts of oh, I want that for myself, or I wish I had this or that wasn’t there. I had an uh ha, moment, your girl Curvanna has matured! I had a moment of clarity.  What type of reflections do you have as you enter this holiday season? It is commonly reported that this time of year depression is high as well as the suicide rate. What are some of the ways that you try to deal with these feeling as they arise? Have you had to help someone during this time of year, because they struggle? Curvanna is in the struggle with you.I had to look inside myself and do some internal cleaning out. I realize as I started this journey, that I had to clean out my existing closet in order to let new things in. The light bulb came on for me when I realized that I was ready to let some things go. This journey helped me put somethings into perspective. Accepting my curvy body meant accepting myself. I had to like my hourglass shape, which help me feel more confident in the clothes that I wear and the things I recently purchased. My self-esteem went through the roof one day, when I stopped to look in the mirror and see my own reflections. I saw, the beautiful, God given body that was me, Curvanna! Curvy, brown, sassy, shapely, round, hourglass, rounded hips, and a smile to boot.  I saw something that I hadn’t noticed before, I like how my shape, which said to my inner self, I like me. The voices didn’t rush in, with the negative noise, I discovered my own voice. The process of the journey is making my voice stronger and stronger every day. I know sometimes you may look at yourself and not like this or that, but I say to you, if you don’t like it all, take whatever piece of it you can and build on that.  The journey for me has just started, but this post marks a pebble in the sand, and will be a time I can reflect on. I have met new friends and I am enjoying the process. So if you don’t hear from me as often, take some and reflect upon my post, and I hope that it makes you smile. Look out you may discover your own curves and realize they too, make the world go around.
Stay positive no negativity allowed. Curvann’a journey continues……look out, you don’t know where, she just might pop up.